How Low Can You Go

I've been out of work now for more than three and a half months. My mom is struggling to pay my car and my insurance, and luckily, my boyfriend is kind enough to have all of his paychecks pay our bills. I've stopped answering my phone for numbers I don't recognize and I'm sure that my already poor credit score has sunk even lower. I currently don't have health insurance. I've watched too many hours of tv and have started on a garden. I've cried because we couldn't afford dog food and I've fought with my boyfriend more than any other time in our two years together.
I've seen various news reports about former CEOs taking a job at Starbucks, or a former stock trader that now delivers pizza. I sat at Burger King tonight talking to the staff considering how bad it would be if I were to cashier there. It would pay minimum wage, I'd be on my feet most of the day, I'd have to deal with people and I'd be working in fast food. I never thought I'd have to work fast food. If I had moved to a place where there was no chance I would ever know anyone then it might be an option. How do I react when my boyfriend's parents come or someone I used to work with.
I've filled out applications, I've sent my resume off and to no avail there's been no response. I've considered joining the military for some sort of training and a job, but then I might die. I've considered the option of being a stripper, if I were skinny enough and I wouldn't be opposed to having sex for money if it was someone I trusted and I wasn't a street walker.
I have this fear that I'll screw up at any job so bad that someone will be disappointed in me as much as I'll be disappointed in myself.

No happy endings

I don't hate happy endings, I just don't like that the happy ends. It's like watching Ever After or The Princess Bride and wondering what happens after the final kiss and the fade to black while the credits roll. I'm not looking for something to be illfated, I'm just looking for something more substantial than that. Do they fight? do they hate some of their habits? are they faithful? does everything work in the bedroom like the partners want it to? My main question is, what happens next?
As much as I would like to believe that love is a beautiful, and undying, and everything media would like it to be I live in the real world, or as real as I can believe it is.